"the future is wide open"

Had a WONDERFUL Friday! School went by surprisingly fast! I also went shopping with one of my friends. So much fun! Then went to Starbucks for a Extra Coffee Caramel Frappaccino! Yum :) I bought two dresses for Graduation! I am so excited, I only have one week left of school! Then class trip to NYC! I have never truly experience New York. Only once have I been, and we spent the entire time shopping in China Town for knockoffs! Which are quite good, actually. But we'll be doing the typical tourist things, of course, like visiting the Statue of Liberty and Top of the Rock. We're also going to see Stomp and the Broadway play the Fantasiks. I cannot wait to spend 5 days just chillin with all of my friends. It's really exactly what I need before going off to college. Even though we'll all be attending colleges within 45 minutes of each other, I know it will be difficult for us to stay as close as we are now. Although my friend Bekah will be going to the same college as me, I will still have to endure the experience of a new place and new people, while dealing with the pressure of college courses, as will all of the class of 2010. However, I know that changes are good for me. It's just a little scary. I suppose the fact that the future is wide open terrifies me the most. I mean, in four years I will be either getting a real job or going to grad school. So much depends on what's happening within the next year! I mean, college is all about finding yourself, right? What if I don't like what I find? Or others don't like it? Somehow, I have come through a tumultuous four years of drama, drama, drama! And I feel like this year has been a year of personal changes regarding my world view, ideology, and theology. I'm not sure I can handle much more change. I suppose many almost high school graduates are feeling this way right now. There is so much rushing at me right now. And despite my complete joy and excitement about getting out of high school and my hometown, I am completely terrified.